What? What does running have to do with anything?
I realized I'm kind of an aggressive person. I take out my anger and aggression out on my body. No, I don't cut myself, I don't overeat, and I don't drink and do drugs. I work out.
When college started, I was always angry and I had this issue with taking out my anger on others (sorry!). When I signed up to take Fitness for Life my sophomore year, I was dreading it. I didn't want to work out that much. Getting gross and sweaty in the middle of the day did not sound like a good time to me. I didn't realize how much this class would change me.
While taking that class, I started eating healthier. Anyone who saw my eating habits before this time would not believe the junk I ate. I'm gagging just thinking about it. Anyways! I started eating a lot healthier. I also started drinking a lot more water. I started to feel great!
And then there was the working out. I'll admit, getting gross in the middle of the day still wasn't my idea of a good time. I would shower in the morning and then have to shower again in the middle of the afternoon before my next class or rehearsal. But! I realized through that class that I like working out more than I thought I would. I would run or hit the weight room on the weekends or in whatever spare time I could find.
I felt healthier and less stressed. I also gained about 20 or 30 pounds from a well-balanced diet and from the muscle I was gaining. Just a disclaimer, I was 5'9" and around 100 lbs. I wore a size 0 and I'm pretty sure I looked like death. It was amazing. Most people freak out about gaining so much weight at this age, but I felt amazing. I had never felt so strong or so healthy in my life.
And flash forward to today. I have had a ton of problems in the past few years with my current roommate and the other person living in my apartment. I got angry, refused to come out of my room to eat, and just stayed angry. I recently had the stomach flu and couldn't eat. I felt incredibly weak and lost about 5 or 10 lbs from not being able to eat for a few days. I started eating super healthy and meatless to get my system used to eating again. I also started working out to gain back my muscle that I was losing.
A few weeks later and I feel great! I run pretty much every night and I haven't felt this stress-free in over a year. It's amazing!I've gained back my weight, kept up my healthy, not fried, rarely eating junk food diet. Ahhh-mazing!
Stay beautiful lovelies!
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